Inspirations

SO, today is a new day, and I am going to try and begin to update my blog more than once a month or just on holidays...  I sometimes will put it off till someone asks about it and then I am like, "what am I going to say?"  But, I have had several inspirations this month so far, that I figure I will use this blog as my journal somewhat.  Make sense?

I decided to go ahead and try PWOC here at Sill again.  In the fall, I wasn't feeling it so much, as the crowd of women was older, and there was only ONE study that everyone had but no choice on.  I didn't feel like that study was for me, so I opted to try the one at the church that I started going to.  But, with this group, I felt like I just wasn't fitting in.  I felt like I was a loner in there, and was further behind then everyone else.  It became more of a burden to make the trip over there and then not get what I needed out of the group.   So, I stopped.  And it saddened me to have to stop going, but I just wasn't feeling comfortable within that small group and everyone knows how uncomfortable that can be.  You feel like you stick out like a sore thumb, while everyone else was enjoying themselves, laughing, etc.  Me, not so much.  I made the decision to not give up on my walk with God, and that I was going to seek out another avenue that would lead me to either another study or something.  Then, I get a postcard in the mail, how Spring PWOC is starting back up here at Sill, and this time, they are offering more studies.  Four to be exact.  And  felt like it was a "sign", even thought it was a postcard lol.  So, I made a pact with myself and with God that I would go try again.  And if that was where I was supposed to be, then I would know.

Class began on the 15th of January.  I went to the kickoff and was greeted by some of the nicest ladies I think I had ever met.  Or maybe it was just their way of welcoming a new face, I don't really know.  I got all sorts of hugs and welcomes, that it made me feel special.  I went and found a seat.  Yes it was in the back of the room, as I am always a back seater.  Then, the room started to fill with all sorts of women old, and younger.  And these three older women came to my table and asked if they could sit.  I was like, sure.  Thinking why they chose to sit with me, the loner...  That was probably why.  Anyways, we started our ice breakers and discussions, talked about the studies being offered and so on.  The lady to my left, whom was probably the oldest woman there, just had the warmest smile and started talking to me.  (Kind of reminded me of my Babci, in a way)  She began telling the table how she lost her husband in a horrible car accident, a few years back, and now she is living with her daughter and son in law, which is a chaplain here on post.  I just thought how precious she was and how I hope when Tim and I are old, and we need a place to stay, that our own children would welcome us... Ha!  While talking more and more to her, and the other two ladies around me, I felt welcomed.  I felt like this time was going to work and that I wasn't going to let anything stand in my way from doing another PWOC study.

For the icebreaker, we each had to bring in a new dish towel.  They handed out sticky notes and on the sticky note, we were to write our prayer request.  Then we placed it on the towel, and played the "left right" game.  While passing my towel and prayer around, it kept coming back to me and I thought, hmmm, this isn't going right.  Finally at the end, it did end up back in my hands.  I felt sad actually.  I thought umm, who's gonna pray for me?  Lol.  Then it just so happened my lil old friend, to my left, also had her own towel so we exchanged to one another.  Yay, now I have someone to pray for me =)
It was just funny how that ended up happening the way it did.

After class, I just sat there and watched as ladies left.  I don't know why, I just didn't feel ready to leave.  Then one of the prayer ladies came over to me and introduced herself to me and we just started chatting.  I began to talk about my children, and how I know they believe in God but they don't KNOW Him or His story and how He came to be who He is.  They don't know the importance of having faith in something bigger then ourselves.  And, I want them to go to heaven when that time should arrive.  (corny) But true.  So I asked the lady what more I could do, to try and strike the interest in them and make them want to be a part of a youth group or something.  She gave me some recommendations and I was excited to come home and try to research what it was I was going to try with them.

I ended up going to the Christian book store, The Salt Cellar, and purchasing them each an Adventure Bible, (as those looked the most interesting), along with a book that tells the story of the Bible from beginning to the end, for kids.  I also got myself the book, Power of a Praying Wife, cause I heard it was a really good book.  I came home and explained a little to the kids about what I wanted to start doing with them, kind of like our own little study, and I said we will start after dinner.  Mason wasn't so thrilled but Maddie was excited.  I have two opposites.  However, the first discussion went really well and I did notice a spark in their eyes.  My only issue, was the questions they asked me, from their own minds....  I am not well prepared in answering some of the topics they asked me about so I need to get studying too..

these are books I bought for the kids

This one is mine

I am also still doing my photo challenge for the month of January.  Last blog I believe I left off with day  13, so here are the rest up currently...

Day 14-Something I am reading, with kids

Day 15-Happiness

Day 16-Mornings....  Frozen windshields

Day 17-How we hydrate (water)

This is day 18-Something I bought!!!!  I signed up to do the Color Run in OKC on May 11th, with my friend Brittney and my hubs!!!!  So super excited!!!!

Day 19- Sweet.  Jax and me, napping.  =)

As I go with the daily photo challenges, I will repost more.  Hope everyone enjoyed.  Love to all!